'The best laid schemes of mice and men often go awry'

Ciao,

 

Today I am a week away from my 22nd birthday and the difference in my life between now and this time last year is actually astounding. This time last year my Dad was home and fine and I was half way through my second year at uni and planning my year abroad. It's funny how you plan a path for yourself and in the blink of an eye your path has been completely redirected. I feel that I have learnt a lot more in this past year than ever before; I have learnt that life is unpredictable and to quote John Steinbeck 'The best laid schemes of mice and men often go awry'.

 

I've been feeling fairly miserable the past few weeks because I feel as though I'm off course and it worries me that I am about to turn 22 and I don't feel any closer to any of my goals. I feel as though I am in some sort of limbo between adolescence and actual adulthood. University life is not a real reflection of adulthood and its responsibilities, you have tonnes of free time, a sparse timetable and more socialising time than anything else and I have to say that I cannot wait to be done with university. I know I will probably regret wishing that time away but as of right now I have done 3 years of A Levels and 3 years of a degree, by the time I graduate I will have spent 7 years in higher education and be 23 years old. I feel as though I'm waiting for my life to start, I want to be out of education with a job so I can start my career and begin saving for a house. How old do I sound?

 

Do you ever feel stuck in a rut? Do you compare your 'progress' to others your age or use your own aspirations as a marker?

 

Ciao for now...